"Catatonic"

Alright, today is a day to remember embarrassing moments, and though mine may not seem very bad to you, they are mortifying to me...or at least at the time they were. 

The teacher is sitting silently at her desk, as she does every day, not even looking up at the students to see what they are doing. I look at my surrounding students and wonder how they could possibly be still working on this assignment considering how it was due at the beginning of the hour. What will I do for an entire class period? I can't work ahead because she discourages it and won't even hand out the study guide or the reading assignment. I don't have any homework with me, and I left my reading book down in my locker, assuming I would have no time to read it during class anyway. I wish she gave out bathroom passes, then I could wake myself up a little by walking around, maybe even splash some cold water on my face. Mm, cold water sounds so good right now. I wonder what the time the boy in front me's practice is tonight. It's cruel how surrounded I am by football players right now, even though there are five girls grouped together on the other side of the room. Isn't it enough that I get trouble from them just for being a geek? Now she has to make a seating chart where there are six of them enclosing me? Still, they don't seem to even notice I am here, which I am very grateful for. Ugh, my eyes keep closing. I hate falling asleep in class. Then again, I didn't really get much sleep last night ... maybe if I just closed my eyes for a few minutes ... it's not like the teacher will notice anyway. I wish I could talk to my best friend in the front of the class. She doesn't have anything to do either, and she looks like she wants to talk. I guess I'll just have to catch up with her at lunch. I love hearing her stories, how excited she looks when she tells me them, and how they are all so personal. Gah, I can't keep these darn eyes open! I'm so tired, and the room is so quiet! I... I... breathe out slowly. 

Mmmm, Mmmm, Mmmmm, MMMMMMMM!!! 

I literally jump in my seat, my body shaking with surprise. Oh my goodness, I literally woke myself up! I moaned and woke myself up! Why are my hands on both sides of my face, and how long has my mouth been open with the tiniest amount of saliva coming out!? Oh no...oh no no no....please tell me they didn't hear that. Oh crap, they are all looking at me. Every single one, even the teacher. What? Have you never seen a sleeping girl before? I wasn't dreaming anything like that, I swear...I just make noises. I really wasn't dreaming anything..it was all black. I don't even feel like I fell asleep. I could swear I just shut my eyes. I've always made sounds in my throat, ever since I was a little girl. My friend in the front is staring at me as well, giving a small little knowledgeable smile that acknowledges how embarrassed I must be, and how terrible this will be when I take in the full scale of it after.  Why didn't she wake me up!? What kind of friend is she!? When class is over I'm going to kill her. Oh stop snickering, football jerks! Don't you know how stupid I feel! My cheeks feel as if they are actually on fire! This is why I hate having sleepovers, because I always make noises in my sleep. Ugh, I hate high school. When will this be over? 

***Disclaimer: I no longer hate high school, but this was a true story. I didn't kill my friend though, and she is still my best today, though her tendency to not tell me things before I am fully embarrassed by them has not faded.